God is Love

I’ve took a bit of a break since my father died.  Examining things and how I can interact better with my life.  I’ve taken some time to observe people and how they react to life and situations.  It just amazes me that so many are so caught up in themselves.  Today people are more likely to ignore someone in need then help them.  Even if that help was a few kind words.

What’s most shocking to me is this happens in so many Christians as well.  When I think of this am reminded of the 2nd chapter of James, specifically verses 14-18.

14 What  does it  profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what  does it  profit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.18 But someone will say, “You have faith, and I have works.” Show me your faith without your works, and I will show you my faith by my works.
James 2:14-18

Some people have had real problems with this scripture of the years.  Some say it is in stark contrast to other scriptures that state salvation comes by faith not works lest anyone should boast.   But in truth the scripture says that if you have real meaningful faith, these things will follow.  When God has taken up residence in your heart you can’t help but to overflow with these things.

God first and foremost is a god of love.  It was love that sent Jesus to earth.  It was love that submitted to the cross for our sins, it was love that drove every aspect of Jesus’ ministry on earth.  It flowed out of every part of his being.  And why?  Because he put his Heavenly Father above all else.  He spent so much time in the scriptures and in the presence of God in prayer that the nature of God sustained him and flowed from him.

My Grandfather past away late last year.  My grandfather was my hero.  He was such a man of God and just having him apart of my life helped me through some of my hardest times, even when he didn’t speak a word to me.  He touched so many peoples lives and listening to people speak at his funeral was very touching and confirmed the same thing I’ve felt in my life.  He was a man of God and prayer. He spent time in the scriptures and in prayer like no one I’ve known.  And the presence and love of God surrounded him.

2 Grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord, 3 as His divine power has given to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us by glory and virtue, 4 by which have been given to us exceedingly great and precious promises, that through these you may be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.

2 Peter 1: 2-4

This is why I think my grandfather had this presence.  God has given us all we need in His word.  By study and putting that study to work in our own lives.  His Word to us is more then inspirational, it’s His promises to us.  By partaking, or putting it to work in our own lives through study and prayer, we become partakers of God’s divine nature.  He rubs off on us just as a close friend or loved one does.  We pick up some of their traits.  And that overflow of love beings.  God is love.  He has always been and always will be a God of love.  Our walks should be as his was.

He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked.

1 John 2:6

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Rest in Peace Dad

My father, Gary Roettger, passed away on Tuesday, April 14th in the evening.  He was ready to meet his Heavenly father.  He ran the race of life in such a way as to win the prize which I’m sure he’s now received.  In His time working on staff at MSU, he touched many lives both students and faculty.   He was much loved by all who knew him.  The latter years of his life were tuff and painful as disease took its toll on his mind and body.  Now, he’s at peace.

I loved my father and decided to share some moments that were my favorite with him. When I was 19 or 20, we took a motorcycle trip across country together.  We could still laugh at the times we took refuge from rain underneath an overpass, and how completely soaked we were.  And how after the rain let up a bit we went to Deny’s for a late meal after a long drive in wet cloths.  The front half of our cloths and shoes were soaked.  The back half dry.  We received some looks but it was quite funny to me, in a way that everything seems so funny.  I remember how we finally found a hotel room early in the am after repeated attempts to sleep at rest areas due to full hotel rooms.  We slept only for a few hours but to this day, it was the most comfortable bed I’ve ever been in, and my dad agreed.

I remember sitting with my dad and grandfather as we listened to my grandfather’s World War 2 experiences.  I remember how taken back we both were at what Grandpa went through.  And the new found respect we both had for him for his strength and dedication to God.  My grandfather was always a large figure in my life, a large influence and my father shared this.

I remember the long talks we would have as we shared experiences of this disease we both seemed to have shared.  I remember how he helped me feel like I wasn’t alone.  We would talk about the small things we go through from the confusion, to the problems thinking, to how hard it was to walk.  He would listen even though he was in a great deal of pain.  He would do his best to calm me when I was upset knowing how it would effect me if I couldn’t find some peace.  I remember how much his eyes lit up when he saw his grand kids.  I remember how much he seemed to love his family even when showing it was painful.  And I remember how much he loved God.  My father and grandfather are now both in heaven.  Both are at peace and have freedom from the pain.

Rest in peace dad.

Gary Charles Roettger

May 18, 1950  – April 13, 2010

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Pain Sometimes Brings Peace and Hope

So here I am, it’s 5am and I cannot sleep.  I am just recovering from an extremely bad day pain wise.  It is always strange once all the pain lets up.  I’m always very happy to be alive.  I am always very grateful to God for getting me through.  I’m always filled with Joy and happiness too.  In many ways it is similar to the way we come out of painful trials.  They hurt, they sting, and they make us wish we weren’t going through them.  But if we learned the lessons God teaches us well through them, in the end we have the same opportunity to be grateful. We get the same opportunity to be hopeful.

I always think to the future.  To what may come, to my hopes and dreams.  I don’t have much in the ways of dreams now days.  I just want simple things.  I want to get debt free, something that won’t come easy given the medical bills and debt we’ve incurred through my sickness; and my lack of real income now aside from my disability.  I want to own a small chunk of land that my wife and can try to be more self sufficient with.  It would have a large garden, solar power, and would want to make it a refuge for friends and family that may need it.  I would even take a trailer on a small chunk of land at this point.  It would be a nice way for us to try and cut the cost of living so we could live cheaper and more within our limited budget.  Most of all I just want to help people any way I can.  These are things that I in all logic should have no hope for at this point.  Things that I should not think I will achieve even so basic of dreams.  But after today, in the calm and peace of the moment, I believe I will.  I believe that reason for hope has not left me.

I endure the pain for the promise of peace at it’s in.  I run the race of life, for the same reason, the prize of the upward call of Christ Jesus my Lord.  Endure all things, for the peace and calm that will be in the end.  Keep hope alive, there is never a reason to give up.

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*Updated* Gmail Hacked

So one of my email accounts was hacked.  I have primarily used gmail for some time now.  Now that my email was hacked and all information appears to have been changed I cannot get it back.  They changed the recovery options.  Even though I’ve entered all the information required on Google’s account recovery page it has stated that they cannot verify me, even though I’m sending it from the only ip address I’ve used in last few years.

I find this most annoying.  The only option is to change other website accounts tied to this and hope that those don’t get hacked too, at least one was.  What is more frustrating is the only option available is an automated process that seems to reject more then it fixes.  With no phone or email support there is no other way of resolving this.  How is a support company so large and with so many products design something so poor as this process?


After a month I was able to get my Gmail back.  It was hacked from somewhere in China, still don’t know how, I have checked my pc numerous times for key loggers, viruses, and the like and found nothing.  I had used some incorrect information to try and get my account back and it locked the ability to try again out for a week or so.  After digging around I found the right info and got it back.  Thankfully.

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The Usefullness of an Iphone

So anyone who knows me, knows I’m a geek.  And as many geeks I love gadgets.  One of my favorite gadgets over the years have been PDA’s.  I remember my first pda’s was a large folding keyboard with small screen.  It was a bit long but still small enough to carry everywhere.  I loved it.  The full keyboard allowed me to write anywhere.  Something I’ve often used my pda’s for.  It ran Windows CE, and had a  mobile office sweet.  now Over the years I’ve had a number of pda’s.  From Linux to Early Win CE devices.  I’ve had a lot.  Just before I started getting real sick my cell phone/pda/home phone died.  I don’t have a land line because of money issues.  It just was too expensive to justify the cost per month with long distance plans when I could get the a decent plan in form of a cell plan.  I’ve not looked back since.

My previous phone was a Verizon 6700.  A Windows Mobile pda that I had upgraded the rom to Windows Mobile 6.  It had an expansion slot with a 2 gig SD card in it.  It was an ok pda, but even new it had crashed a lot.  The pda was starting to have problems and i had to replace it when it stopped charging and the screen died.  Our cell phone plan was horrible and our Verizon service had left us with a single bar in only one area of our apartment for the longest time.  We had thought about switching companies being unhappy with Verizon service and support for a long time.  We made the dive into AT&T when I was just beginning to loose my mobility.  The cost is the same per month that we had been paying with Verizon, better service and we had 2 Iphone 3g’s that we purchased with it.  It was an expensive risk but after having had the Iphones for some time it was worth it.  In fact latter we changed our plan to a cheaper plan and pay less per month then we did for Verizon, with better service, and I cannot speak enough good words about the customer support we’ve had over the time.  We’ve had a few problems here and their, my wife’s Iphone was replaced once but they overnight us a replacement at little cost to us.

In the journey of my sickness my Iphone has come in very useful to me.  It’s a comfort to have it.  It helps me track my diet, sleep patterns, provides entertainment that goes with me, ability to look up facts and information on the go, gives me a means of recalling information I’ve tracked for my doctors, and much more.  There really is an app for about anything you want.

One of my favorite things about a pda has been the ability to bring my Bible with me where ever I go.  It allows me to do a small study at a moments notice.  If I cannot sleep then I can reach over for my Iphone and starting reading God’s word and make a productive time of my sleeplessness.  Let’s take a look at some of my Favorite Programs.

Strong’s KJV

A Pretty simple Bible Program I love it for one great reason, The ability to view the Strong’ s definition of words. It costs 99 cents.  Not a bad price and is the best app with Strong’s look up that I’ve seen.

Strong's KJV

You see here the word “heed” looked up from Matthew 6:1.  Overall a great program for looking up words.

Strong's KJV Word Lookup For just sitting down and Looking a few words up I have another program I love.

Bible (LifeChurch.TV)

This is a tie in of the website youversion.com.  It has many different versions of the Bible you can read, including in a few languages.  I love this version just for the ability to switch between apps.  It has the ability to download versions for offline viewing, and it is free.


This concludes my first installment of Iphone posts.  As I find them I hope to pass on other programs, podcasts, and other things that may help you in your walk with God.

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