I remember when I first gave God control of my life. When I made Him my Lord, not just my savior. I remember how every breath was an adventure and on my tounge were his praises always. I remember where walking outside, talking with God was an adventure that I longed for. I remember when I had friends who loveded God as much as I do. I remember sharing God with them. I remember them walking away from God and from me more then once. Coming back, but bitterly and judging me without knowing what I think, assuming things they ought not of me.
I remember what it was like to have friends I could count on. To have people that thought about more then what they can get from me or argue with me about. Thank God for my wife who still is everything great about every Relationship I ever had and more. She is God’s love personified for me. Thank God though that while your friends my go astray and turn from you, God will not.
What I want now is for the restoration of my relationship with God. To stop having the relationship of a distant onesided speach and start having an interactive relationship with God where He talks to me. I’ve been reading Nehemiah lately. God, even back then, was about restoring.
…If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations; but if you return to Me, and keep My commandments and do them, though some of you were cast out to the farthest part of the heavens, yet I will gather them from there, and bring them to the place which I have chosen as a dwelling for My name.
I find it amazing that even after Israel was scattered then that He sought to restorm them. God is about love. True love. He seeks to restore us. He seeks to find us.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the LORD, and I will bring you back from your captivity; I will gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you, says the LORD, and I will bring you to the place from which I cause you to be carried away captive.
God Desires to restore us bring us back from the things and places which drove us from Him. So often we want life on our own terms. So often we want life to be about us and our desires. We think “If there is a God, and He is love, then he wouldn’t send me to hell.” But we neglect the truth of His word, seeking only to bring about fleshy justification for ouselves. Life begins to bring us down and an overall emptiness prevails. God is the missing component. I don’t claim that walk with God is easy, it isn’t, you need staying power, you need to endure trials, sufferings and even persecution for his name sake but in the end, he is there and the emptiness isn’t. Why so few people, especially Chrisitians, neglect to seek true relationship with God is beyond my comprehention.