“3 When I kept silent, my bones grew old
Through my groaning all the day long.
4 For day and night Your hand was heavy upon me;
My vitality was turned into the drought of summer. Selah”
I came across this today while studying. And it hit home to me as a reminder to walk according to the Holy Spirit’s leading. Long ago while I was studying to be in ministry, I worked at a restaurant. A man came in and was obviously drunk. The stench of liquor was strong. He tried to sell me a long distance phone card (a disposable one). I looked at him and thought that he was only going to use it to by more liquor. So I turned the man away and helped him out the door ever so gently, but still out the door. It was the end of my shift and I was tired. On my way home I began to think about the man. I had carelessly shrugged off the feeling that I should tell him about God. And as I drove home I had to pull over the conviction hit me so hard. I felt God was telling me that He had brought that man too me to hear about God. Maybe just to receive a loving gesture that feeds a seed that was planted long ago. But I knew that God had appointed me to help that man in some way. And I knew I failed Him. I wept repenting to God, but that feeling will never leave me. I will forever know it.
On our walks with God we will receive the leading of the Spirit. It won’t always be obvious, and definitely won’t always be easy. But we must cast off that which hinders, we must follow the leading. We must set aside ourselves, our doubt, our lack of faith and press on toward the objective God has given us. We must trust in Him.
“Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the LORD delivers him out of them all.”
We need not fear what God asks of us. He will be with us. Maybe God is asking you to trust him that you will be able to pay the next rent bill. Maybe God’s asking you to speak to someone about Him. Maybe He’s telling you to pray for something you have no faith for. Trust Him. Close your eyes, give up yourself, your doubt, and your fear to grab hold of faith and trust in God. God leads us in our every day life. Not just in whom we speak to about Him. If we do not follow Him we will feel it in our bones, right down to our very core. It will suck the life out of us. To be God’s bondservant, is to step out and follow His leading. To deny ourselves and take up His cause, and let Him take care of us.